I stopped going to church after being judged a bit too much by people there. I lost sight of the fact that they too are sinners and imperfect. I got my feelings hurt and got all defensive and then just walked away. I still pray, still try to be in the Word, but not in a church. See, this was just so wrong on my part. So, Sunday, being 1/1/2012…I am going back. I’m not going to let it bother me when someone questions or judges me and my walk. The only one that matters is my Savior. He knows my heart, soul and mind, and I’m a detailed work in progress. He and He alone knows the truth inside me. Others will have to be patient as He works in me to make the changes that need to be made.
My journey back to God and church had been a difficult one for me. My life path went places no one should ever go.
I also let hurts get to me. I know now that I have a lot of unresolved pain still from my divorce, and that needs to be dealt with. Now.
I’ve started looking into DivorceCare groups in my area. Meanwhile I’m getting the daily devotional email from them and I’ve bought Kay Arthur’s book, Lord Heal My Hurts. I read it a long time ago but I needed a refresher. The DivorceCare daily emails recommends it. I love anything that woman writes so I’ll be starting that now.
This page is getting a make-over, I may even change the name. Not sure yet what I will do.
2012 is ahead of me, and I am very excited. I’ve put away the seeking for a relationship, I need to heal me, focus on me, grow me. Heck FIND me. I need to spend time on me and my walk, life etc, not on finding someone to fill my heart. That void is best filled leading a godly life.
So, be patient while I rearrange, clean house, and get this page the way I want it for 2012.