Why So Down Cast?

Psalm 43:5 (New King James Version)

 5 Why are you cast down, O my soul?
         And why are you disquieted within me?
         Hope in God;
         For I shall yet praise Him,
         The help of my countenance and my God.

Well okay, I was having a really rough way to go for about 24-36 hours.  The blues had set in and I’ve been struggling hard against bitterness and depression.  But thankfully the Lord answered the prayers through various sources.  Encouragement from several people, reminders of the blessings in my life, and then that verse from Psalm 43 is on my calendar for today.  It is a cute, verse a day calendar my mom gave me.  I really need to start reading it in the morning rather than when I get home, this one would have been good for me today.

And I heard this song, and it made a huge difference.  It always does, it is a GREAT, worshipful song.  And it is very hard to be anything but filled with joy when praising God.  I just need to keep my focus on Him, remembering that there are no mistakes, everything that comes my way is because God has allowed it for a reason.  My life is blessed beyond measure and I need to stay in the Word and in a state of mental worship and prayer. The video will give you the link to actually watch it on youtube, it is worth it for the beautiful song.


Sometimes The Words Aren’t There…

Sometimes I have SO much in my heart that I need to pray about, only to hit my knees and find the words simply are not there.  I have burdens on my heart and I want to lift those up but I cannot begin to put into words what is in my heart. 

I’m so thankful that He knows…only He knows my heart and knows the deepest thoughts and concerns there.  Sometimes the silent heart of prayer is what is needed.  And sometimes it is the song sung from the heart and soul that carries those burdens heavenward.  Tonight is one of  those times when words fail me.  And one of those many times when I can just worship and praise Him with songs and know that the Lord hears the cry of my imperfect attempts to pray, and knows what weighs me down, and WILL answer.

This is one of my favorite songs of late on the radio, and Sunday morning Mr. Wonderful sent it to me on email.  It is ministering to my heart tonight where I cannot form the words to pray but my heart does, and I know the Holy Spirit intercedes for me, as scripture says.

For The First Time Again

In the midst of a post I’m working on I got distracted by news that my mom’s cancer is back.  I hit a block and will get back to that post but I needed a music break.

I was listening to the video I had posted this morning (see below this post) of Jason Gray and clicked off on this one and loved it.  It really speaks to where I am over the past month. This Sunday marks the 4th in a row, one month, that I’ve been back ‘home’ in my church and among my church family that had been praying for me.  Jaded…bitter…yep that would be me.  It’s something I’ve struggled with lately and I’m praying about it all.  The song is great, and I think this whole CD is one I will just have to own  soon, like I feel a little road trip to the store coming on Friday afternoon!  The songs on this one are just ministering so much to me right now.